Salam.
firstly, I want to apologize for every harsh words that Imma use in this post. I'm sorry. korang pernah tak dibanding bandingkan dengan adik beradik lain? especially your younger sister/brother? kalau pernah, korang akan faham dengan everything Imma say. k I have a sister, and she's 14 this year. layak ke budak umur 14 nak dipanggil baby? aku macam nak panggil babi jelah -.-
hari Jumaat. aku balik pukul 1215, memang tak pernah ah aku balik 1230 en hari Jumaat. then one day aku call mak aku, that time dah pukul 1220. adik angkat die cakap mummy tengah mandi, kakak kan balik 1230. and I was like o0o?! nasib baik ade nasya semua dekat warung, boleh lepak lagi. then dah nak dekat pukul 1, aku call lagi, tanye dekat mane. then kena marah like........zzzz. I was just asking boleh tak. seriously, I cant stand to maki right now pehhhh. I forgot what was the day, antare sabtu/ ahad, adik ade class golf/ballet. then we were late to fetch her, and mummy cam risau gila takut sangat adik tu lambat lah ape lah, kesian die sorang, kesian die penat. eh pergi maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! aku balik sekolah tak penat ape sial?
I bought an instant lasagna mase shopping kat Tesco haritu. clearly, I bought it for me to eat lah kan? ape lagi. then aku mintak tolong adik gosokkan tudung, in return aku masak kan lah lasagna tu, and we share. tapi bile benda tu dah siap, die tinggalkan aku like 1/4 je. benda tu dah lah kecik. aku macam babi betul la kan. aku beli untuk aku do. then as usual mummy back up die lah, mummy cakap mummy yg salah blablablablablabla.
sebenarnye ade banyak lagi, but aku macam tengah under depression gila, and aku tak tahan nak nangis. I always wonder kenape mummy tak pernah back up aku kalau dulu Adam buat aku macam ni eh? dah banyak kali lah aku mengalah dengan adik. dah banyak kali aku tahan nak marah die, because Im a big girl now, aku kena fikir banyak aspect before aku marah die. but hati aku sakit, ade sesiape kisah? haram sial, nobody cares! mummy marah aku, aku diam. aku tak melawan macam dulu. because I love her. tapi, sampai bila eh aku kena tahan macam ni. my life wasnt easy okay. dulu mase form 1, I refused to masuk MRSM tapi mummy marah en? adik, mummy just tanye nak masuk asrama tak, and she said she doesnt want. lepastu k go je tak apply anything. takut sangat ah benda aku buat tu adik pulak buat? aku takkan buat kalau aku takde masalah kat sane k. nobody bothers to ask me if Im doing fine. ah fak everything.
to my readers, kalau korang disagree with this post, Im sorry but I have no other place to luahkan. I have only this blog. if you guys rase macam erk -.-?! you guys boleh unfollow aku ke anything ah korang nak buat aku tak kisah. nak cakap buruk pasal aku pun cakap lah, aku tak tanggung dosa korang. but still, Im sorry. Salam.